Pain is a good thing. Pain is your friend. Pain tells you that you are still alive.

But sometimes pain makes u feel like ending your life too... Dun know why but these few days i keep thinking of her... Went to bugis today to pass ah foo money for our saturday movie. Gonna watch matrix. So many people at bugis... So many couples holding hands... makes me miss the days when we held hands.

Equilibrum and balance in life. Some people are smart but suffer physically or emotionally, everyone has his ups downs, good points and bad points. However good points are not always good for you. I've understood the reason why i have perfect eyesight and why my hearing isnt perfect. I always can't catch things quickly by hearing and i know why -.-"... My perfect eyesight is a reminder to me, to let me see all the things i shouldn't see that remind me of her, of places we often go to and things we used to do. My hearing is for things that she always never said to me although i kept waiting for the words to come out. I guess that's one of the reasons why i can never let her go. I've been waiting for the right words to come out from her too, but they never came and i'm still waiting. Like a fool. I'll never forget the day we broke up, when we talked on the phone as she called me after her lessons ended. I was at bugis. Then i went to an arcade machine... and my tears began rolling out, no one to comfort me no one to talk to. Like now. I guess i dun really need any good friends, everything keeps being bottled up and someday i will explode. Then i will be set free from this world by my own special way. How long more can i take it? I dun want any sympathy i dun want anything... For now i guess i just wanna be left alone and drown my sorrows ._.

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